It has been challenging to navigate my identity for the past year or so. I guess I am in the "figuring out who I am" -phase right now. This has been the hardest year for me so far. I keep wishing I could go back in time. I have gone through realizations, awakenings, and so many rejections this year.
Sometimes it is hard to find any worth in myself when everything I do seems to be the wrong thing to do. I still keep pulling myself together every day even though I have no real goal in mind nor any predictable outcome in sight. I keep thinking whether I need to know everything about myself. Is it all really worth it?
I have learned things about myself that have been a defining aspect of who I am and what I do. It has been so interesting to realize my patterns of behavior and attribute them to certain characters I have inherited from my parents and friends. I haven't yet understood what to do with all this information, but I guess time will tell.